It’s not you, it’s me.

I’m beginning to realize that a lot of the time I perceive issues in my relationship, it really is just something to do with me or an issue I’m dealing with. I am just the type to over analyze every little thing and I like to just get to the bottom of an issue so that it can be fixed.

I struggled this weekend, and I kept asking myself if my relationship is right. To be honest nothing at all had changed. My guy is still being the same person he was a year ago, we have grown and are stronger, but he definitely still makes an effort to show his love and everything. We are planning to buy a house, and we have been saving up for a wedding.  So why do I suddenly freak out thinking that maybe we shouldn’t be together?? I have started asking myself a question whenever these thoughts start to creep in – Is it him or is it me? Is he REALLY doing anything different or hurtful? Or am I just looking for a reason to fight, or am I just being insecure and reading too much into what he says or does?

If you are anything like me we just have to take a step back and breathe! I have to accept the fact that he does love me and he wants to be with me. He actively tries to better himself and wants me to be happy. Just like I do for him.

It has taken me so long to get to this point in life, where I can trust someone and depend on them. I just always expect something to go wrong. Unfortunately, it comes from being in abusive relationships, or dating narcissistic guys in the past who were just looking to add another notch to their headboard. Who knew it would be so hard to just relax and be happy? 🙂

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I reallyBlog try to stay away from posting about my “love” life… But I really just had to brag a little bit. I know for those of you who have been married for years, 6 months doesn’t seem like long at all but for me, it’s pretty darn good! Romualdo and I met online and text each other off and on for almost two months before we met. We were mostly just friends at first, he thought I wasn’t interested in more, and I thought the same about him. So of course I had a little “liquid courage” on the 4th of July and finally told him I liked him. It truly has been like a fairy-tale since then! We have our disagreements, and we each bring our own set of baggage, but we communicate and are patient with each other.
To be completely honest, I didn’t believe him at first when he wanted to be “exclusive” or whatever

you call it. I had set my mind to just dating around and not getting into anything too serious before he came along. He has been so kind and understanding. I’ve opened up to him more than I ever have to anyone! He knows my insecurities and does his best to help me see that they are no big deal. He has been nothing but supportive of my career decisions and even when putting up with my family.
I’m a little afraid to publish this post, I really don’t want to jinx this.  But I just felt like this is a really big moment in my life and it will fit in with everything else my blog is about. With all of the ups and downs in life, this is definitely one of the “ups”.
I definitely am not naïve enough to believe that we won’t ever have any major problems, or that we will even be together forever. However, I do know that this is the most solid, steady, and healthiest relationship I have ever had and I hope that it continues to grow!

Always, Meg